Hello again.

 

Hi friends,

It’s so nice to talk to you again. I stepped away from the blog for the past few weeks because of some challenging stuff in my personal life. However, I’m really looking forward to coming back into this space and connecting with you all through words. Perhaps I’ll pick up where my celebrity series left off or perhaps I’ll move into different topics and circle back to that series later, but either way, I look forward to riding this wave together.  

It’s important to me to be transparent with you all about where I’ve been at. The past few weeks have been some of the most difficult in a long time. I’ve been navigating intense anxiety and fear that has rooted itself so deeply within me that my physical health and wellbeing have been compromised. I’ve pondered what my future holds and begged God to just give me some sort of confidence in what steps I’m supposed to take next. I feel like everything in my world has been thrown off-kilter and each day feels impossible if I begin to think outside of the present and into the future. 

It’s been a good reminder that the peace and grace and love of God is right here in this moment – it’s not sitting in the past or waiting for me in the future, but it’s right here, right now. When I surrender my days and moments to him, they are better, easier, freer. It’s been hard. It continues to be hard. And yet, I believe that God will work it all out for good. I can acknowledge both full confidence that he’s using this time and also the true sentiment that I just want this season of life to be over with, in favor of a happier and more settled next phase. Patience is a virtue, I guess.  

I’m reminded as we head into Easter tomorrow that there is no struggle that Jesus didn’t face himself. That he took on the weight and pain of the world and conquered it all. He has already overcome the world and in him is tremendous hope. My prayer for myself and for those reading is that this knowledge wouldn’t only sit in our heads, but also completely transform our hearts. I know that I have a hard time with this – knowing, but sometimes struggling to believe. 

That's it from me, for now. I'm looking forward to talking to you again next week. There are exciting things yet to come and meaningful conversations yet to have. 

xo 

Abbey